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My head hurts i feel i cud die! :’(
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this morning aku dtg awal (huwaa…). eheh. bangge – ei bukan comment psl aku dtg awal lah! ha ni: i’ve dis colleague kat opis nih. she’s.. lebeh kurang susah lah untok org bercommunicate. bak kate zah, dunno how to communicate with her laa. nak dijadikan cite, die telah berkawan dgn seorg lelaki di opis ni jugak.. according to her, it’s he yg suke lepak kat tmpt die n bercrite criti; n pade dis lady, he started first. ooccay…. no.1 rule of rejection, jgn salahkan org (ewah, aku leh jdk edward de bono de 2nd plak, ke baek aku jadik bono U2 je akekeke).
so somehow, de bercrite criti caught her heart, n she fell for dis guy. aku xkan kate fell in love lg. mere “suke” saje i guess.. ke..? dunno lah. she fell sbb pade die, dis guy is like an angel (ur my angel.. ur my daaahling angel.. nyanyi sket ). bley x die kate kat aku, die x sampai ati nak ckp even “i”, “u” pon dgn dis guy sbb dis guy sgt baek pade die. so they were “saye”, “awak” la like dat. ehem, zah n sesape yg kite bercommunicate sedemikian, jgn perasan .
jadiknye, mereke pon berkawan2.. dis lady penah ajak dis guy nak selebret bdei togeder2, mule2 he agreed, then bile approaching de day, dis guy bad mood ke apetah, siap letak tepon trus. eyy… tabley la lagu tu, mamaat… dis lady slalu la dtg kat aku nak cite ape sume, tp on her kali keberape nye attempt (i think before things got ugly lah), i oredi told her, one major problem of de situation: the guy dah ade gefren. he even made plans nak bertunang ape sume, ni aku tau mase dlu2 aku sembg ngan de guy. aku dah ckp sama ini budak prempuan, jgn rapat sgt, be aware, blabla la poyo sume. aku even ckp supaye xnak die jdk mcm situation aku dlu2. ko degil, ko nak pursue jugak. fine.
one fine day (it was fine la then), dis lady ym n cite psl plan die nak selebret bdei dat guy n how he hung up. she said she was planning to confess la cemtu on dat day, nak tau blabla ape sume. ko degil lagi kan. fine. aku xtau la aku hangin apetah aritu, i said this:

so since then, she left me alone.. , which is gud lah. sori lah i hef to say this, tp de sight of her pon aku dah x tahan. i dunno wat has come unto me, tp itu yg aku felt.
insiden pagi ini. hari ini aku datang riang (:P). tetibe gear tesangkot sbb ternampak die bercrite ngan suzanne. aku trus tip-toed pg tmpt aku, letak bag, kuar pg common area, n call suzanne ajak bekpes. told suzanne, jgn ajak die (apesal ko zalim ngat edi..). tp die nampak aku gak, n tanye leh x die nak unpaid leave 2 weeks, boss bg ke x. pastu dgn muke nak nanges nye tp x dilayan oleh aku, she said she got a gudbye email from dat guy.. n she showed to me. aku ckp ngan die, sudah lah, biarkanlah die.. then she said “somebody approached me ok”. so i was like, well, ape tunggu lagi, go ahead lah. watpe ko besedeh2 psl someone yg xnak kawan ngan ko dah, go konsentret kat org yg approach ko tu lah. ape susaaaaaaaaaahhhh?? (. die ckp die xnak lose a gud fren. aku bantai balek ckp ingat senang ke nak ckp org tu gud fren. merely talks just cemtu sume ko dah claim gud fren?? ko dah go thru ups n downs ngan die ke? ko dah tau asal usul die ke? kalo die dah xnak kawan dah laa…
dlm email tu, dat guy ckp “seperti yg awak tau, saye dah ade yg bertakhta di hati”. ewah. n then dat guy ckp la yg aritu diorg kuar lunch tu, let it be de last time lah. blabla xde niat nak permainkan hati **** blabla sume. tp he wrote dat email, in a veri “opismate” manner, which is wat he’s onli trying to be to her. dlm hati, “kan aku dah ckp….”. haiyya… cemane nak bg ppl rase ape yg ko penah rase dlu haaa…
berbalek kepade aksi di opis pagi ni: then zah pon masok opis, n kitorg 3 org membuat pelbagai aksi dr pkl 8 tu sampai 8.40 baru leh bekpes, di mane suzanne telah selamat sampai kat tmpt bekpes tu lebeh awal lagi bcos “i’m so hungry lah!” =)).
dlm perbincangan bekpes, rupenye she came at EMPAT PAGI ke opis (reported by along ), to do dunno wat, tp die bgtau zah yg die buat keje apetah. but, 4 am?? dude.. please lah. aku nak bgn 6.15 pagi ni pon rase mcm nak kene pegi qiamullail je. she showed de ring she was wearing to suzanne, ckp yg die dah bertunang. occayyy…. hmm…
xtau lah nak ckp cemane. aku bukan xnak tolong. dah. dah bgtau. dah nasehat. tp die xnak dgr. kadang2 aku rase it’s unfair for her bile aku treat cemni. whereas mase aku jdk cemtu dlu my frens are like always be there n support aku sume. ntah2 ni Tuhan try nak tgk will i do de same stuff my frens did to me bile ade situation cem aku lg. lepas tu mesti kene punish huhuuu… aku belom overcome lg de situation, tp just be strong je lah. there’s nothing within my power yg aku leh buat.
anyway, bukannye aku nak pk sgt pon psl die, tp cube bayangkan eh, let’s say one day, ko resign from present kampeni, ko masok kampeni tu, n tetibe xde org nak kawan ngan ko. xke sedeh. xke psycho jadiknye. wat if u became de talk of town, became org yg tidak disukai, became org yg org len nak jauhkan diri.
oklah. kepale saket balek. ter tak lunch plak dah membebel psl org nih. penyebok btol edi .