AllYourLuck’sRunOutOnYou

around lunch hour tadi, i was scouring through my gmail, in a housekeeping attempt, which turned to be a scrapping-the-whole-lot-of-old-emails, instead of archiving them. that was when suddenly, i came across one email, mase aku maseh bekerje kat xybase. the reason for using personal email at that time was the company’s email server was down. this was two years back.

two years back, i was a very rude person, and i didn’t have professionalism in me. aku x amek kira hal org, janji aku belasah those ppl who’s going to make the company suffer, without realizing that the process we currently have at that moment, is cramping people. i remembered that hatred i had back then to the project manager who refuses to abide to our rules. this is the email. please disregard my grammar. i never care about them anyway . note that i did not greet people here?

With all this impressive schedule, do explain to me all these:

   * How are we going to conduct the training without the application
     going through the UAT, and without the application being verified
     and deemed ready for client?
   * As per schedule, I’m fine with the CSU training since the UAT was
     done before. What worries much is on what scheduled on the 7th
     Feb. What has actually been agreed by all now?
   * Logically, we have only 27/1, 2/2 and 3/2 for UAT. Has the
     regression of the internal ORs raised during IFT done?
   *  From those 3 days, when do you want to slot in the regression of
     the UAT ORs?
   * To come up with a training manual, you *are *aware right that the
     Training Department needs to undergo and study the system (which
     is supposed to be running fine) first? In how many hours do you
     expect them to come up with this manual?
   * I’ve received emails from our testing engineers, highlighting on
     the testing server readiness and whatever needs to be catered
     before going through UAT. Have all these been taken care of?

I agree that we do not have the luxury of time; but you are jeopardizing
the quality of this project by cramping all these within impossible
dates. These are my concerns. I don’t know what other dependencies which
were not informed to me, and hence my concerns are based on what I know.
Advise me on these.

Adlina

sadder part is, there’s no please here. if only those people i’ve hurt during my employment there, are reading this, i am so sorry for making ur life a living hell. i hope the current QAs are more sensible. do understand that being a punchbag to the top management made me lost all my senses and pushed people harder beyond their limits.

when i werked with dell, i lost my temper to a lead developer in austin. can’t remember the reasons though. i sent out an email yg berbaur marah. my mgr found out, and had a discussion with me, and asked me to bgtau die if there’s any problems, before shooting emails kepade pemangse. then he sent me to a class, on how to deal with difficult people. i learned a lot from there.

then i joined kampeni baru ni plak, taking the role similar to the one in xybase. during discussions dgn mgr aku in the first month, i did tell him yg i’m a kinda short-tempered, and he gave quite interesting insights on how people werk, and the fact that these people are humans, and not machines like the ones they werk on with. being considerate gets people to cooperate more, rather that holding a cane and directing them to adhere. 

alamak. terase ter’serious’ plak dlm entry nih. heheh. but as a lesson here – most of us know, if the leader is a lady, better be careful, since women tend to give difficult times to people around her, especially her subordinates. i’ve known a lot of my friends yg dikenali sbg mgrs, team leaders, who shouts at people they werk with, more often than they shout at their children/siblings. note to myself jugak, respect cannot be gained in that manner, just hatred.

well… you know what they say, Frank…. *sunglasses*…. anger kills. YEEEAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! (intro song)

kekeke..